I logged on FG for the first time in ages, and was pleasantly suprised to see messages from you fellow gardeners asking if I was okay. :-4
I haven't been online much, as I have been feeling a little out of sorts, not quite feeling like I "belong" or "fit in" anywhere... :-1
I think generally the stress of the last 2 years has now come to a head for me, I am trying hard to get my life back on track and deal with the emotional baggage that has stemmed from the heartache.
I'm obviously a little down which can only be expected, but I am trying hard to get back on my feet and sort myself out, starting with my self confidence and making new friends to help & support me...
I am so coming to terms with whats happened and trying to make sense of it all and I guess in time I will figure it out.

I promise to come online and participate in the garden... and I'd just like to take this opportunity to thank Cherandbuster & spot for there kind words and supportive encouragement..
It really helps to know that you guys care so much. :-4
sometimes all we ever need in life is too feel loved and cared for and you guys have done that in copious amounts.
The girls are fine, still causing trouble as usual, I have heard nothing off my ex about continuing his ridiculous request for visiting rights to the girls, so fingers crossed he has got the message loud and clear...
I hope you and your families are all well and happy...
and I look forward to reading your posts and catching up with you fellow gardeners
love Michelle