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lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:39 pm

Jives wrote: Holy CRAP!

I've seen lurkers post before, but this has to be the all-time most explosive I've ever seen.

Welcome, ASM. You've got guts, I'll give you that. While we are sitting here waiting for the fallout and the blast wave, I'll agree that it seems wrong to separate a sick person. Have you looked into this LC?if the poster meant squat to me you may have seen a blast wave

. obviously i am not myself. i talked to Lt. today...who defined differences between fired, terminated, separated, resigned. this was separated since i can't fill post on my squad. with the option to return. but i may still need legal help for financial reasons. they probably expect that. i simply have been too emotional to get there.

abbey · Post by **abbey** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:46 pm

lady cop wrote: when i get all my duckies in a row That has to be the sweetest expression ever :-4

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 2:30 pm

yeah, i don't think it was ill-intentioned either, which was why i was polite. Flop i keep thinking about you, i do not recall 'whopping' you! you have to refresh my recollection, i've whopped a few people! LOL ...and once again my man, he just spent a fortune to come over here 2 weeks ago to be with me. and he spends a fortune calling me all the time. he also runs two businesses and works his arse off to provide for our future. i have no doubts and i have perfect faith in him. we did not meet on this forum, we have been together a long time. a man does not fly 4500 miles every other month just to get laid. he's English....he does not talk about his feelings. except to me.

abbey · Post by **abbey** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 2:39 pm

You dont have to justify Bothwells sincerity LC,

the people of FG know his loyalty and commitment to you, as do you,

and thats all that matters x

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 2:50 pm

BabyRider wrote: Hey, Bravo, Stuf. I think you're the very first member to ever p!ss off the cop with your very first post. Why would you go and do that? You can read all you like, but you don't KNOW LC or Bothwell at all, and to question their relationship and his support is flat-out rude. You have no idea of the financial, personal and logistical difficulties both are experiencing. Since you at least got the "they love each other" part right, wouldn't it stand to reason that if being together was possible, they would be?

As for the rest, you yourself said you don't know Florida law. How do you question the reality of LC's circumstances? Asking a cop like her to take a desk job would be like taking a triple crown winner and asking it to pull a hay wagon. And she'd probably do it anyway, if it was an option. Obviously it's not.

Yep, I agree. You can do that once in a while. But every other time? I can sympathize, I can understand, I can share my own personal grief. But not with every post I make on every thread. There is a line between sharing misery and spreading misery. There's a point when it looks like a pity-trip as opposed to support. You yourself share personal trials, but you are also supportive and uplifting and inspirational at the same time. The continuous "feel sorry for me too" that I am seeing elsewhere is blatantly self-centered.i wrote Weeder privately. i am worried over Weeder as well. it's funny, we did not start out good buddies and she is here helping me. one never knows. humour...let me add humour....Bothwell is in a pub as i write and phoning me, he is making me laugh and cheers me up. he just sent me a package of lovely books about the cotswolds where he lives, and some other stuff. cheered me also. and Abbey you're right.

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 3:11 pm

another issue just came up in another thread....England is quite rightfully concerned who they let in. it has been part of our holdup. i am still LE certified and clean, but it is most difficult.

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 5:19 pm

Apparently I was meant not to get in on this because my internet's been out the last few hours.

Probably a good thing.

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 5:22 pm

i keep visualizing myself going from a cop to bag lady,living in a dumpster. so all this weighs on my mind.

Hey Ive been through the Keys, all the chicks down their look like bag ladies youll fit right in ! :-6

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 5:34 pm

lady cop wrote: i wrote Weeder privately. i am worried over Weeder as well. it's funny, we did not start out good buddies and she is here helping me. one never knows. humour...let me add humour....Bothwell is in a pub as i write and phoning me, he is making me laugh and cheers me up. he just sent me a package of lovely books about the cotswolds where he lives, and some other stuff. cheered me also. and Abbey you're right.
I always liked weeder. In fact, as I was writing a certain post I thought of her, because I'd missed her and I think some of the crap that happened around here the last few months is part of why she's stayed away so long. I was hesitant to post it because I didn't want her to stay away again, even though it wasn't directed at her. I'm really glad she's back, because she is so smart and so big-hearted, and very inspirational. (Not to mention a sister biker)

Bothwell is always there, LC, you know that. Even when he's not there, he's in your heart, just like you're in his.

BTS · Post by **BTS** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 5:34 pm

BabyRider wrote: Hey, Bravo, Stuf. I think you're the very first member to ever p!ss off the cop with your very first post. Why would you go and do that?

UUUMMMMMHHHMMMMMM BabyR,

I think I have that title wrapped up.............

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 5:36 pm

BTS wrote: UUUMMMMMHHHMMMMMM BabyR,

I think I have that title wrapped up.............
Yeah, but you guys already knew each other from somewhere else. That don't count! :p

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 5:54 pm

BabyRider wrote: This is going to sound totally crappy and wrong, and I have no idea how else to put it except to ask: Do you participate in ANY thread where you don't turn it into something about you?

I keep seeing this from you, and it's starting to make me wonder. No matter what is going on in other people's lives, you have it, or have had it worse. You sound like a defeatist, and you sound like you thrive on your own drama.

If it was just a "bad physical bout" for LC, she'd be fine. She'd get over it. But it's that, plus losing her career which is more than a job to her, it's her identity. Her man is 4,000 miles away, she's practically broke and has no one near her to support her. We are all very aware of what is going on in your life, NV, but why not just offer support here, instead of constantly reminding us how bad YOU have it?

I thought I was offering support. LC needs her meds for her heart - I DID say I didn't know she was having such a hard time with them. I need meds for my cancer prevention, BTS needs meds for his heart. We are all going feel like we are taking baby aspirin when Steph has the kidney transplant. Those drugs have really bad side effects but will keep Steph alive. I guess you missed my earlier post to this thread expressing sympathy with no mention of myself.

BTS · Post by **BTS** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 5:55 pm

BabyRider wrote: Yeah, but you guys already knew each other from somewhere else. That don't count! :p
Oh reaallly now.......... where did I know her from before my first post?

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 6:34 pm

BTS wrote: Oh reaallly now.......... where did I know her from before my first post?
Another forum, though I'm not sure which one, or am I mistaken about that? I would have sworn you guys were on a crime forum of some sort, but then my short term memory isn't really all that reliable.

Gabs · Post by **Gabs** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 6:38 pm

Well I see LC is back posting pretty regular today.... I can quit lurking about now. I was online a lot at work today..if they say anything I will just say that someone I know was having a crisis and i was keeping an eye out for her.... I will be repeating that all the way to the highway.......

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 10:55 pm

thank goodness for ACC and Nomad! ....and BR i don't know that i knew BTS elsewhere, if i did i don't know 'who' he was. i have done my best to make a friend there. Gabs, i PMed you. i knew you were there sweetheart. and Clint, you too. such a good man. it's 0200 here, i just woke up again, will go find some threads to respond to until i can go back to sleep.

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 10:58 pm

lady cop wrote: thank goodness for ACC and Nomad! ....and BR i don't know that i knew BTS elsewhere, if i did i don't know 'who' he was. i have done my best to make a friend there. Gabs, i PMed you. i knew you were there sweetheart. and Clint, you too. such a good man. it's 0200 here, i just woke up again, will go find some threads to respond to until i can go back to sleep.
I'm still up too. Bullet's not home from work yet, hard to sleep without him here.

I thought BTS came over from that crime forum???? Remember the crap we gave him when he first got here, or am I thinking of someone else?

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 11:11 pm

BabyRider wrote: I'm still up too. Bullet's not home from work yet, hard to sleep without him here.

I thought BTS came over from that crime forum???? Remember the crap we gave him when he first got here, or am I thinking of someone else?no, he is the person you refer to....i just don't know where i knew him from. hey, he wasn't as bad as 'saintsman'

when you have a strong personality you will attract detractors...as you may well know.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 3:12 am

Thank You for that nice post BR. Im not so smart. I am very simple. My mentality is locked in the 70s. I am very unconfrontational? I love it when people join together for a common cause or concern. I get very happy when I see the power of human energy form a ring around the world. My friends nicknamed me turtle. When I get upset, or there is unkindness or battling around me.... I pull myself in my shell like a turtle. I also often get myself in trouble, sticking up for the underdog. Often the wild little beast will turn around and bite me! I have always thrived on overcoming obstacles in my life. With every victory, I got stronger and stronger. Ill tell you though... Some very big mountains have been put in front of me lately, that I have to cross over.... and Im not that 27 year old motorcycle rider. I am a 53 year old grandma. Got myself in a financial mess 2 years ago, taking on a business down here in Georgia. The business is failing. I hate it here anyway.. have been homesick everyday. I am taking steps to get out of it, but the debt I am going to have is pretty frightening. The discovery of the malignant melanoma on my arm, was the first challenge that wasnt in my controll. New experience for me. Very horrifying. I have weathered( as others have) the death of of a loved one, physical disfigurement, accidents, divorces, betrayals, single parenhood,family disfunction,career changes,location changes, . and financial worry. To think that a thing the size of a pencil eraser on my arm has the potential to do me in is so bizzare its not even absorbable. The discovery opens your eyes to the understanding that fate is not in our own hands. So anyway.........Now Im not the least bit afraid to fly, and one way or the other..... broke or not... I AM GOING TO GET BACK HOME!! And furthermore... for the first time ever.. WEEDER is going to pick one of those stupid generic smiley faces. What the hell.... you only live twice right??? Oops I mean once... That was the name of a song

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 3:20 am

See what a stupid idiot I am?? I dont even know how to put in a smiley face. Ill practice here.......: Forget it.. I cant get them to move.

Gabs · Post by **Gabs** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 5:23 am

lady cop wrote: thank goodness for ACC and Nomad! ....and BR i don't know that i knew BTS elsewhere, if i did i don't know 'who' he was. i have done my best to make a friend there. Gabs, i PMed you. i knew you were there sweetheart. and Clint, you too. such a good man. it's 0200 here, i just woke up again, will go find some threads to respond to until i can go back to sleep.

My heart hurts for YOU LC.... I will lurk about more often

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 5:59 am

Gabs wrote: My heart hurts for YOU LC.... I will lurk about more oftenplease do, you are such a nice lady.:-4

chonsigirl · Post by **chonsigirl** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 6:22 am

Dearest LC, beloved by all of us here, are you feeling better today? We are here to give you love and support through the difficult time you are having, and we want you to take care of yourself so you don't get ill again. You got to stay in tip top shape for your Bothwell now!

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 6:31 am

chonsi....want the truth? or the sanitized version? truth is i still feel horrible. both just called me, he had a flat tire this morning and made me laugh. but i feel like shite. sorry, i can't lie.

chonsigirl · Post by **chonsigirl** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 6:44 am

Never want you to lie LC, you feel bad, you tell us, we are here for you.

But he made you laugh this morning, so your heart is happy for awhile.

Sometimes there are bad days like this, but even the one moment of laughter can help you through the physically feeling bad times and long days.

I live for my one or two smiles a day from my man, and if that is all I get, then I can do nothing else but plunge on with the daily life. It is not happy some days, but must be done anyways.

The physically feeling bad, you let your doctor guide you through that-even though I know you hate the meds and the tests and that stuff. This time will pass, although it is so durn slow and you wish it would hurry up and you would feel your perky self again.

*pick up a handy plate or something, and bust it all up-go kick a rock, something to vent at-I think I broke a plate last night I was so tired after working 5 days and 4 nights at jobs, and having another gigantic job to do first thing when I walked in the door last night-made me feel better for awhile, so I could concentrate on the rest of the chores*

cars · Post by **cars** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 2:24 pm

Oh LC, I'm so sorry for you, I just got to read this tread, Jonny come lately, that's always me!! All your many FG friends have just about said it all, there's not too much more I can add, I wish there was! I sort of know how you are feeling, you think you life is over because your job ended. I had to make that difficult decision on my own, to have to "Pull the Plug on myself". I was sick for months before, knowing the last day of work was approaching. Well I did it & was sick for a few weeks, thinking my life was over because my job ended. As time has gone bye I'm quite happy now. Because I actually found out I was more than just my JOB!!! In time you will to, I'm sure of that. You will now live a lot longer, of that I'm sure of also. Cause I can only begin to guess of the terrible stress that your job put you through "every single day"!

So take it from an old timer, who was "crushed" when leaving "the JOB", but is now content filling the days with things I like to do. Golf, Bowl, Sightsee, visit friends & relatives, long walks, watch TV, of of course "my FG time here in this wonderful Garden"! :-6 :-6 :-4

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 6:13 pm

i've been sick and asleep for o while, but the cop brain does not turn off....that post #91 from 'stuf' is preying on my mind...why would a first-time poster get into my personal business in so detailed a way?

that really was wrong. it's different from people here that i know. and it posted this Aren't you supposed to be together by Christmas? that

is only 2 months away.....IF i ever posted that comment about Christmas here, it had to be many months back. so is this someone i may have known, or simply a rude snoop? i cannot decide. will see if it comes back. that was it's one and only post.

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 6:27 pm

Let it go, LC. It's only words. pixels on a screen. Go look at the ocean and send the thought out to sea.

mominiowa · Post by **mominiowa** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 6:32 pm

Simply put..........

:-4 WE LOVE YA- LC!!! :-4 YOU ROCK!!:guitarist

Bez · Post by **Bez** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 11:25 pm

Accountable wrote: Let it go, LC. It's only words. pixels on a screen. Go look at the ocean and send the thought out to sea.

Inspired advice form ACC..there's nothing so 'healing' as the ocean ...xxxxx

abbey · Post by **abbey** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 1:37 am

Accountable wrote: Let it go, LC. It's only words. pixels on a screen. Go look at the ocean and send the thought out to sea.What a truly lovely man, how lucky we are that he found us. :-4

Heed his words LC, and please just go lie down! x

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 4:45 am

I blame Bez. She's got me practicing my eloquence because of her incessant compliments. :-4

Before, I'd have the same advice, just phrased more like "F*** 'em!"

Gabs · Post by **Gabs** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 5:41 am

Hi, LC

How's it goin' today?

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 6:47 am

nvalleyvee wrote: I thought I was offering support. LC needs her meds for her heart - I DID say I didn't know she was having such a hard time with them. I need meds for my cancer prevention, BTS needs meds for his heart. We are all going feel like we are taking baby aspirin when Steph has the kidney transplant. Those drugs have really bad side effects but will keep Steph alive. I guess you missed my earlier post to this thread expressing sympathy with no mention of myself.

I dont think you need to explain yourself here walleye.

venus · Post by **venus** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 7:31 am

The way l look at it LC the day you arrive here for good to be with Bothwell it will be christmas , easter, new years and birthdays all rolled into one!!!

so what if its not as soon... it will happen....

You have an awful lot left to do in this life, l just know it.

And strong women always get what they want, thats because we overcome all obstacles and can still smile while weeping. xxx

Bez · Post by **Bez** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 7:54 am

Accountable wrote: I blame Bez. She's got me practicing my eloquence because of her incessant compliments. :-4

Before, I'd have the same advice, just phrased more like "F*** 'em!"

I'm flattered that I'm such a good influence....actually ...that I've got any influence at all....

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 8:13 am

I think you have no idea how many people you've influenced. :-6

Bez · Post by **Bez** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 8:21 am

Why thank you ...

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 8:34 am

Accountable wrote: I think you have no idea how many people you've influenced. :-6

How many ? Numbers please ! Lets back this up with some cold hard numbers !:p

chonsigirl · Post by **chonsigirl** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 8:36 am

Nomad wrote: How many ? Numbers please ! Lets back this up with some cold hard numbers !:p
To infinity and beyond!

abbey · Post by **abbey** » Sun Oct 02, 2005 10:38 am

Accountable wrote: Before, I'd have the same advice, just phrased more like "F*** 'em!"

:yh_rotfl Good one.

Bothwell · Post by **Bothwell** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 12:57 am

Mea Culpa (Arizona stuf cake, get someone educated to translate it for you).

Well I have been off the board and I guess all LC's mates have talked her down by now and I had second thoughts about even posting against this most obvious of flames.

But just for your info Arizona whatever, I reserve my conciliations to LC for private conversations much as I would love to bare my soul on a public forum my English reserve prevents it.

I would just add however that your post was so baltantly designed to heap more agony on to someone who has already suffered more than enough slings and arrows of outrageous fortune ( it's Shakespeare Arizona, he was a writer) as to define you as quite the most unfeeling individual I have seen on this board

Now I suggest you get back to the site from whence you came (I recognise the tenor of your post) and leave us to get on with ours.

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 3:57 am

Both, when you finally visit Texas, look me up. We'll find a decent pub somewhere; my treat.

Bothwell · Post by **Bothwell** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 5:42 am

Can I wear my kilt?

Gabs · Post by **Gabs** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 8:41 am

Accountable wrote: Both, when you finally visit Texas, look me up. We'll find a decent pub somewhere; my treat.

San Antonio has lots of DECENT pubs.. especially along the riverwalk One has 64 oz margaritas that are out of this world.

Bothwell · Post by **Bothwell** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 8:48 am

Did I read that right 64 oz Margaritas!!!!!! gabs I am out of control after 3 ordinary glasses of the stuff.

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 9:39 am

Bothwell wrote: Can I wear my kilt?
Sure. They come with a blade & scabbard, right?

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 9:41 am

Gabs wrote: San Antonio has lots of DECENT pubs.. especially along the riverwalk One has 64 oz margaritas that are out of this world.
64 ounces of anything alcoholic would put you out of this world. :wah:

The operative word is pub, rather than bar.