Anyone awake - it's 10:30 MST - US

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:23 pm

Needng to talk. Anyone out there?

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:27 pm

It's only 9:30pm here in oregon. What's going on? Are you ok?

BuckTurgidson · Post by **BuckTurgidson** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:28 pm

Jawohl. Whats up New Mex?

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:31 pm

Need a warm body - had a good day - just want to know someone is out there.

I'm scared - my daughter is finally preggers and he's going to Iraq 9/11. We are having a major family reunion ---- I worry it may be the last for a lot of people -the elders are in their nineties. My family is growing and dieing -- ain't that the way life is.

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:34 pm

So much good and so much bad going on .......... My hon is tired and asleep - need someone to talk to

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:35 pm

flopstock wrote: you okay girl?

scared

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:39 pm

((((((((( nvalleyvee ))))))))) I'm sorry you are feeling scared - but glad we're around to be with you through it.

There aren't really any comforting words when we talk about family in their 90s except that they've lived a wonderfully long life in a free country with people who love them. Sometimes we're reduced to counting our blessings. (soft hug with that one)

Congratulations on the baby! I know the Iraq thing is very scary. (My son will be going overseas next spring.) Your daughter is lucky to have you there for her, and maybe vice-versa?

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:40 pm

I forget that people don't know me, my voice, or what I mean when I type half the time.

I meant to encourage you to keep writing about how you're feeling, why, and what makes you feel good about these situations.

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:41 pm

Have you ever been alone and known everything is really OK. It's OK - I just got lonely for a little while.

:driving:

Who else here lies when they are having a bad time?

:driving:

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:43 pm

A Karenina wrote: I forget that people don't know me, my voice, or what I mean when I type half the time.

I meant to encourage you to keep writing about how you're feeling, why, and what makes you feel good about these situations.

Your voice on the internet means a lot to me.

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:45 pm

Your voice mean a lot to me.

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:46 pm

nvalleyvee wrote: Your voice on the internet means a lot to me.
That's because you are a sweetie.

(from the previous post) Yes, I lie when I'm having a bad time. I say I'm fine, everything's fine.

When is the baby due? What are you most afraid of? Why do we feel the need to put a good face on everything?

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:47 pm

fear galvanizes us somehow....it leads you to prepare for goodbyes, and tell the ones you love that you do. between now and the reunion i would offer a small suggestion if i may....write each person a letter on some lovely stationary. tell them what's in your heart. it may help you sort out your emotions and it will gratify them. putting it in writing is something they will treasure. and your mind will be at ease because you told them how much you love them. most of our regrets in life seem to be the things undone or unsaid. you're going to do just fine!

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:48 pm

I'm 50 - there is no baby - I just got declared 1 year cancer free today

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:51 pm

lady cop wrote: fear galvanizes us somehow....it leads you to prepare for goodbyes, and tell the ones you love that you do. between now and the reunion i would offer a small suggestion if i may....write each person a letter on some lovely stationary. tell them what's in your heart. it may help you sort out your emotions and it will gratify them. putting it in writing is something they will treasure. and your mind will be at ease because you told them how much you love them. most of our regrets in life seem to be the things undone or unsaid. you're going to do just fine!

I will not be able to do that LC - too abused. I always make a good life with the people I love now.

Nuthrday · Post by **Nuthrday** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:53 pm

AND it's always worse at night!

AKarenina, I'm in Oregon too...cool..

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:55 pm

nvalleyvee wrote: I will not be able to do that LC - too abused. I always make a good life with the people I love now.that's what matters most...but i was thinking of the elders and your son. are there going to be people there who abused you? if so, that can't be healthy for you. you have to think about yourself, you are one year cancer-free and there is a mind-body connection.

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:55 pm

I always thought it was worse in the day.

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:56 pm

nvalleyvee wrote: I'm 50 - there is no baby
Oh! I'm confused then. I was thinking of your prior post when you said:

nvalleyvee wrote: I'm scared - my daughter is finally preggers and he's going to Iraq 9/11.

nvalleyvee wrote: - I just got declared 1 year cancer free today
Now that's something to be happy about!! And you've managed to get away from abuse and start a new life for yourself. That takes a lot of courage, faith, hope, and lots of plain old-fashioned goodness. Good for you

Being nosy...does your daughter live near you?

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:57 pm

Nuthrday wrote: AND it's always worse at night!

AKarenina, I'm in Oregon too...cool..
Hey there, neighbor!

I'm down in the capitol. Are you near me? We're having some awesome weather, huh?

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 9:58 pm

lady cop wrote: that's what matters most...but i was thinking of the elders and your son. are there going to be people there who abused you? if so, that can't be healthy for you. you have to think about yourself, you are one year cancer-free and there is a mind-body connection.
Yep! What she said. LC, you're really good at this stuff. I'm horribly inept.

(wailing) But I mean well!!!

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 10:01 pm

lady cop wrote: that's what matters most...but i was thinking of the elders and your son. are there going to be people there who abused you? if so, that can't be healthy for you. you have to think about yourself, you are one year cancer-free and there is a mind-body connection.

The abuse is close LC - always will be because it was family. You and I both know what that means. Adults diddling with kids. Since noting was ever brought up to the law - I watch the children at all times.

A Karenina · Post by **A Karenina** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 10:05 pm

Bless your heart, nvalleyvee. Knowing that, I have to firmly stand with LC on this one. Please don't go to the reunion - too much stress and pain.

If there are particular family members you want to see, can you make other arrangements to meet with them?

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 10:06 pm

nvalleyvee wrote: The abuse is close LC - always will be because it was family. You and I both know what that means. Adults diddling with kids. Since noting was ever brought up to the law - I watch the children at all times.i don't mean to ask you to speak of personal horrors...but was there ever any type of resolution to the crimes against you? if not, how could you ever heal? there has to be a lot of cold fury eating at you...like cancer does.

turbonium · Post by **turbonium** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 10:28 pm

Hey, nvalleyvee. I'm sending you this song clip - from a piece I wrote called Always With Me. It's sort of a music lullaby meant to show the warmth, comfort and security between mother and child. I hope it helps a bit.....

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 10:34 pm

Turbo, that is lovely! really nice. it soothed me!

turbonium · Post by **turbonium** » Fri Jun 24, 2005 11:06 pm

lady cop wrote: Turbo, that is lovely! really nice. it soothed me!

Thank you LC! I'm glad you liked it......I've never said this before, but after I first recorded the song, it brought back memories of my mom when I was very young, and how nice it felt to be in a loving family. :-1 <tears of joy

capt_buzzard · Post by **capt_buzzard** » Sat Jun 25, 2005 4:23 am

Buzzards always about:D