Going back to the country

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 1:32 pm

It has been more than two years since I returned to Virginia from Georgia. Taill between my legs.. failed business owner... broke, confused, and lost for direction. I took a small 2 bedroom apartment. Economical. No acess to the outdoors, which is very weird for me. And just did whatever I had to do to survive. Right now, I am driving 80 miles round trip, 5 0r 6 days a week. The gas $$ is killing me. So anyway June first I am moving closer to my job. I have rented a restored General Store. 6 miles out of town from where I am working. I am excited, but its scary. Very bohemian place. One huge room downstairs. Loft upstairs for bedroom, sitting room. French doors leading to a deck. Horses at my kitchen window. Ill be 35 miles away from my kids and my parents. But I will save 400.00 a month on gas, and for the umteenth time, I am starting a new life. Im hoping that this new enviorment will inspire me to paint and write Hopefully, I wont just lay around watching movies, eat, smoke, and play on the computer, like I do now. My life will have new meaning!! Right????????

Sheryl · Post by **Sheryl** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 1:34 pm

The place sounds wonderful. I'm sure you'll have it looking very nice within a short amount of time.

Post by **Bryn Mawr** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 1:36 pm

weeder;771019 wrote: It has been more than two years since I returned to Virginia from Georgia. Taill between my legs.. failed business owner... broke, confused, and lost for direction. I took a small 2 bedroom apartment. Economical. No acess to the outdoors, which is very weird for me. And just did whatever I had to do to survive. Right now, I am driving 80 miles round trip, 5 0r 6 days a week. The gas $$ is killing me. So anyway June first I am moving closer to my job. I have rented a restored General Store. 6 miles out of town from where I am working. I am excited, but its scary. Very bohemian place. One huge room downstairs. Loft upstairs for bedroom, sitting room. French doors leading to a deck. Horses at my kitchen window. Ill be 35 miles away from my kids and my parents. But I will save 400.00 a month on gas, and for the umteenth time, I am starting a new life. Im hoping that this new enviorment will inspire me to paint and write Hopefully, I wont just lay around watching movies, eat, smoke, and play on the computer, like I do now. My life will have new meaning!! Right????????

Very right :-6

The extra time and energy you'll have from not having to drive so far and the extra money you'll have from saving gas will make all the difference.

May it be so and the very best of luck in your new new life.

along-for-the-ride · Post by **along-for-the-ride** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 2:33 pm

Good luck to ya! Sounds like an adventure!:)

WonderWendy3 · Post by **WonderWendy3** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 2:39 pm

I love having horses nearby my home, not out my kitchen window...well, I can see them, but from a distance....It sounds like an adventure for you Weeder, I hope only the best for you.

Are you gonna be any closer to me now?

chonsigirl · Post by **chonsigirl** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 2:43 pm

It sounds like a cool place to live, you will fix it up to look the way you want it. Have fun, weeder.

KB. · Post by **KB.** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 3:39 pm

I always wanted to buy an old store front and turn it into a living area. The one huge room downstairs is my favorite. Take pictures soon.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 3:58 pm

Thanks everyone. I keep dreaming about the place. I am definately nervous.

It really is an old General Store, The landlord lives down the hill from me, in what once was the Train Station. The borrtom IS on huge room. Kitchen exposed along the left wall. Ceiling to floor windows. Up a small winding staircase to the top. It is the entire length and width of the building. Just a small corner partioned for bathroom.. with clawfoot tub, and sink. The only thing missing is a fireplace. I am dissapointed, but Ill put a chimnea on the deck. The bottom could sleep 20 people, but the tiny bathroom could never accomodate all those guests. WW I am going 30 miles south. Farther from you. But down here, without traffic, 30 miles one way or the other is nothing.

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:14 pm

Honestly being on the computer as much as we all are cant be the road to a more enriched existence. Moderation in all things comes to mind. Desire is the first step though so follow through. Test yourself.

I can say this to you ?

You have always struck me as a dreamer, I mean that in a good way. Youre searching for something, I just dont think you will find it here. This should be a place to pass a rainy afternoon away.

Go do.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:34 pm

You are absolutely right. This was meant to enrich my life, not become my life, But it came around at a time when I was very lonely, and far from home.

Its incredible that you posted this reply. I rented the new place to force myself to get on with it. To be the kind of person Ive always been who takes risks. Just last night, when I felt scared enough to back out, I said to myself " Youve been licking your wounds for over two years. Either find a new direction to go in, meet a new challenge... or curl up and die. "

So, I think Id better go.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:34 pm

Oops I forgot.... Thank You.

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:39 pm

weeder;771178 wrote: You are absolutely right. This was meant to enrich my life, not become my life, But it came around at a time when I was very lonely, and far from home.

Its incredible that you posted this reply. I rented the new place to force myself to get on with it. To be the kind of person Ive always been who takes risks. Just last night, when I felt scared enough to back out, I said to myself " Youve been licking your wounds for over two years. Either find a new direction to go in, meet a new challenge... or curl up and die. "

So, I think Id better go.

I think doing is essential to personal growth, even if it involves failure because I sincerely believe failure is our greatest tool in personal evolution. Success is much nicer but failure aint as devastating as not doing.

Doing takes away the torment of idle thought and replaces wasted time with living.

Still you have people that admire you here. Thats important too. Your writings here is doing.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:50 pm

If failure is our greatest tool for personal growth... than I am very successful!

KB. · Post by **KB.** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:52 pm

weeder;771190 wrote: If failure is our greatest tool for personal growth... than I am very successful!

We should write a book!

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:57 pm

weeder;771190 wrote: If failure is our greatest tool for personal growth... than I am very successful!

:wah:

Well I think you know what I mean. It teaches us, or at least it can if we let it.

Failure doesnt have to be horrible, I just mean it can be valuable and used to our advantage.

Perception !

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 4:59 pm

KB.;771191 wrote: We should write a book!

OK. Im In.

KB. · Post by **KB.** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 5:05 pm

We can name it "Gardening in the Sunshine of our Muses While Trimming Nose Hair and Rambling".

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 5:06 pm

Nomad;771195 wrote: :wah:

Well I think you know what I mean. It teaches us, or at least it can if we let it.

Failure doesnt have to be horrible, I just mean it can be valuable and used to our advantage.

Perception !

I do know what you mean, and I also know that you are a very loving person.

Much more serious deep inside too, if you dont mind me saying so.

I have always taken risks. Have handled the dissapointments, taken responsibility for my actions. The reason its more difficult to push my self now, is because I am a little scared about being alone. Only because I am at the latter part of my life. Living for me has always been kind of like Little House On The Prarie. Not many modern convieniences. I kind of live with an olden days kind of mentality. I know whats going on now, but I dont fit in. Its ridiculous to still be trying to find your niche at my age. But its definately better than the alternative. So, onward and upward I go. Hey, you never know who my neighbors will be.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 5:11 pm

KB.;771203 wrote: We can name it "Gardening in the Sunshine of our Muses While Trimming Nose Hair and Rambling".

OH MY GOD!!! You are too much. Hey, think of Running With Scissors. Your title would definately sell. What a Pissa.

Digging in the dung pile of lost love. Guzzling moonshine, and Hallucinating.

KB. · Post by **KB.** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 5:13 pm

weeder;771207 wrote: OH MY GOD!!! You are too much. Hey, think of Running With Scissors. Your title would definately sell. What a Pissa.

Digging in the dung pile of lost love. Guzzling moonshine, and Hallucinating.

I like yours much better.

The dung pile of lost love, that is just wonderful. Can I use that for a story title?

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 5:17 pm

weeder;771204 wrote: I do know what you mean, and I also know that you are a very loving person.

Much more serious deep inside too, if you dont mind me saying so.

I have always taken risks. Have handled the dissapointments, taken responsibility for my actions. The reason its more difficult to push my self now, is because I am a little scared about being alone. Only because I am at the latter part of my life. Living for me has always been kind of like Little House On The Prarie. Not many modern convieniences. I kind of live with an olden days kind of mentality. I know whats going on now, but I dont fit in. Its ridiculous to still be trying to find your niche at my age. But its definately better than the alternative. So, onward and upward I go. Hey, you never know who my neighbors will be.

Fit in ? Whats that ?

Your spirit will guide you and you will do well no matter what because you are grounded.

Also by doing you are giving others the opportunity to enjoy your light.

Get yourself out there and see what happens.

Im always very excited when people spread their wings.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 5:25 pm

KB.;771209 wrote: I like yours much better.

The dung pile of lost love, that is just wonderful. Can I use that for a story title?

Certainly. Its yours. There are so many more from whence?? that title came.