have at least a LEETLE experience with...
Take a deep breath, hun, and hold on. It's all gonna be okay. I for one
don't think you need to apologize to the guy. Let it be a life lesson to him
so maybe next time it happens he at least knows the impact it could have
(and he doesn't try to do it in an art gallery!!
) I also get the feelingthat you would like at least ONE more contact with him, and that ain't
good. Let it go. Just let it go, not important in the greater scheme of things.
Really not important.
Sometimes, you can't get outside yourself to take a look at what's goin' on,
you're all bogged down in the everyday junk. And think of it like this...
you're ONLY 35. ONLY. That's a mere youngster in my book! Don't be so hard
on yourself.
Coupla suggestions: Have you ever thought of doing some kind of volunteer
work in a field you are interested in? Might help you get out a little and
even potential for learning about a job you really do want to do since you
say you are unhappy with your professional life.
Suggestion #2: I have the sneaking suspicion that you might be getting
pressure from family/friends to "settle down"... it's really hard but try to
shut off that noise. It's just not good for your emotional health.
Take a walk in a beautiful spot. Sit and have a cup of decaf tea and read a
good book.
Hope this helps.
Take care
:-6