Well, its odd really. alone?

[Nomad]

Its a very hard thing to ignore people when their primary motive is to hurt you. One thing for certain though is if you believe in yourself, if you know who you are and what lives in your heart is good, thats a very powerful thing to know about yourself. It takes away the power of others over you and people can see it in you. If you are strong within, people can feel that. And cowards are afraid of that which they cant control and manipulate. Stay strong buddy.

[Jimmeh]

Nomad wrote: Its a very hard thing to ignore people when their primary motive is to hurt you. One thing for certain though is if you believe in yourself, if you know who you are and what lives in your heart is good, thats a very powerful thing to know about yourself. It takes away the power of others over you and people can see it in you. If you are strong within, people can feel that. And cowards are afraid of that which they cant control and manipulate. Stay strong buddy.


thank you.

you guys make me want to cry. =D

[Rain]

Jimmeh, keep with the alcohol. I suggested it because going to school and working p/t and having to pay your mother's bills makes your $$ situation tight, and since alcohol is cheap.... And like I said, it won't happen right away, but you will start to see a change. Plus, remember your food intake. Stay away from the greasy unhealthy foods. That will help too.

Have you spoken with someone yet? A counselor, welfare/social worker? Your situation as we (and you) all know is unacceptable.

And yes, Hold your head high. Nomad nailed it. Take pride in yourself and your accomplishments. It's easy for adults to say "Don't worry about it. You'll get thru it", etc. We've been there. But while a person is a kid and living it, sometimes there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. I'm glad you came here to talk with us. That shows your searching for help. Very smart!

[cherandbuster]

Hey JMan

We're happy to help you every step of the way.

Lean on us

We care :-6

[vampress.rozz]

cherandbuster wrote: Hey Man

We care :-6
The world of FG is great and it's good to see so many people grounded in common sense.....I'd vote for pretty much any of the people that have replied above our politicians. Smile Jimmeh I have a feeling you're gonna have a LOT of friends when you get to live away from home you've already made a lot here:)

[Pythos]

First off, I can only concur with the advice already given. If a teacher or counselor can not help, try the school reasource officer. Or being in sunny FL. try DCF. Department of children and families. I know you said your mom would fight you getting into foster care, but DCF has gotten a lot of bad press for letting things fall through the cracks. Therefore they rarely take chances anymore, they'll get you out of there first and ask questions later.

The important thing is that you get the help you need. No one deserves to be abused, or mistreated if your only way out of that situation is to get out of that home, then that is what you have to do.

Next, Don't let other people dicide your life path for you. If you are gay then be so and be proud of it. But don't decide that you are because people keep calling you gay. Be who YOU want to be, not what others who hate think you are. After all you are only 15, there is pleanty of time to discover who you are in your own good time.

Last, you said you work at McD's, when I was about your age I worked at LJS. Everything there is fried and all that grease blowing up in my face played havoc on my skin. My solution was to wash my face every chance I could. They had a sink right there by the fryers for washing your hands. The idea was to get the grease off and keep your face clean. Alcohol is good but tends to dry out your skin you could try an antistringent like seabreaze or witch hazel about the same price.

Unfortunately most of it is just puberty and will fade in time, just the way it is, sorry about that. Now as for your weight nothing works like diet and exercise. In other words don't eat at work. :wah:

As far as excercise start of slow with stretching and walking, then progress to more as you feel you are ready. But stick with it, that's they only way it will work.

I can help you develop a program if you are willing to stick to it. Just say so.

As everyone else has already said, We are all hear to talk to if you need it

Take care, and get help!!!

[CheshireCat]

Jimmeh wrote: I find myself alone all the time, even my mother says I am worthless. You see, for some reason my sister told her I was gay. My sister, 19, thinks I am gay, because I dont really have any guy-friends, and am not really social. She thinks its against God or something, I am atheist so that doesn't bother me. My own mother calls me a dick-sucking faggot, and makes me go to my room everytime I enter a room she is in. I live in a small 2 bd. appartment so thats pretty much everywhere. People at school make fun of me daily, not only for being 'gay' but for being fat and I have horrible acne. I have recieved a dozen of threat notes in the last year, saying if I dont leave, or stop being 'gay' I'll be killed. The thing is, I am afraid if I tell anyone they wont believe me, and my mom wouldnt really care. So, I am locked up in my room, on hours on end crying and doing nothing.



And the funny thing is, I dont even know if I am gay, I mean I do like girls, and even have a crush on one. But, day after day of being called gay, I am sorta believing it. =/ its all very confusing. And I just need some helpful wisdom - what to do? Go to foster care, or find my real father. and dont say counseling with my mom and sister, they dont want to be in the same room with me anymore. :-5



it just sucks, because its not my fault, and I cant fix how people feel about me.


I know you said you are an athiest, but a church would be a safe place for you to seek help too. If you go to a priest or minister and genuinely need help, they will see that you get it. They aren't going to judge you or push religion down your throat. it's just a suggestion, you just seem so alone and lost. Seriously, it wouldn't hurt to try. You need as many people in your corner as you can get!

As far as your sexual preferance, you've got a lifetime to figure that out. Just be you and be kind, you'll be fine.



GOOD LUCK!! :-6

[Jimmeh]

Well, its progressing slowly. I've decided that I will have to stay with my mother, for now. It's startting to let down, and between clubs, school and work I am hardly ever home. I also asked a girl out, and we go out between study dates.

its going pretty well, and I go to the counselor often. thanks for the support again.

[Jimmeh]

thanks. =D I have been gone for a while, due to switiching servers, and getting my computer re-fixed.

[Rain]

Thanx so much for the update. Keep up the positive thinking. We're all your friends here. Really