From: Brenda
Sent: Saturday, April 17, 2010 1:49 PM
To: 'Alvar Young'
Subject: the matter
I am going to assume that you lost internet connection again. I hope you get it fixed soon. It made me think you were mad at me.
I am trying to find the comment that I had left for you, it was about love healing all that ails a person. Which for my part would be a broken. Old, lonely heart.
Sometimes I get these thoughts in my head that I’m being played, please don’t do that. Please keep in mind that I have real feelings and I just do not open my heart, body, soul and mind to anyone. I did, however, open them to you. That has not changed and if I had a problem with you Alvar, I would tell you. I’m honest and straightforward with everyone in my life.
I have to leave the house this morning, in a little while, I pray you will be back online before then, I fear I wont be back until after you go to bed. I will stay up worried about your thinking I’m upset with you.
OH, I have these random, weird thoughts, like, “what if this man is only 15 years oldâ€, please tell me you are over the age of 20. I can handle any age difference except that. I know that sounds silly. Even sounds silly to me. Your heart knows how to romance a woman, teenagers do not know how to do that, typically. Not asking your age, just, making sure.
NO MY FEELINGS FOR YOUR HAVE NOT CHANGED.
Love you Lots and Lots,
Your Precious
Next is from my OH
Gawd how I have missed you ! My internet went down last night and could not get back to you. I waited up to 12:30 But nothing happened. Are you angry with me ? Did you think I was ignoring ypu my Lover ? NEVER EVER. I will never hurt or offend.you. I could not wait to hear from you and when I opened my mails this morning and there was nothing from you it was my turn to worry about you. PLEASE mail me when you get up and then later we can talk. My friends are leaving just after lunch (French time)
It was awful without you. I spent all evening frustrated at not speaking to you.
LOL
Your
Alvar
ps I sound like a love sick schoolboy. Forgive me.
From: Brenda
Sent: Saturday, April 17, 2010 2:27 PM
To: 'Alvar Young'
Subject: ta ta for now
I’m going to get dressed for my day. I don’t know if I will be back in time to speak to you before you have to go to bed. Don’t you go trading me in with any of those prettier girls on MSS now. I would be heart broken. Think of me as I will be thinking of you in that blue shirt and jeans today…mmmm hmmmm . I’m feeling quite in the mood today, now what am I going to do? You are in France and I am in Louisiana! What is a poor ‘lil ‘ole southern girl to do?
Do you still love me?
Love always,
Your Precious
From: Brenda
Sent: Saturday, April 17, 2010 2:17 PM
To: 'Alvar Young'
Subject: some quotes for you from me:
Your quote is back on my page. “Love cures people…both those who give it and those who receive it.â€
Dear Alvar, you have cured my broken heart and lonely spirit. If but I were near you, I would show you the measure of my thankfulness and desire. The full measure. I am not a musician, I only took a couple years of band in junior high (clarinet), I adore music, my soul sings when it is played. You notice that people tend to consider a musician “good†based on their ability to play and/or sing with great “range†of the scales. If we were to ever meet, I’m certain that we would be “very good†together as I am certain that our coming together would reach the highest peaks of the scale while all the while dipping to the lowest range of the scale (not in a raunchy way now).
I’m certain we could make beautiful music together. Our beat would start out slow like in a concerto and end leaving us breathless and spent from having played so hard! Forgive me if you think I’m being crude to you. Just having an open and honest heart.
Maybe when I have more time I can share with you the desires of my heart. I would love nothing more than going on an early morning walk with you hand in hand down that little path in your photo. Then, I would let you take me somewhere for coffee, then, we could return to your house, rest…then I could tire you out.
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Sorry, couldn’t help that. Please don’t be repulsed by me.
Here are some quotes for you.
I have another song for you, it really really is for YOU. I loved this song before I had ever started talking to you, its on my page, it also has a kickin’ horn part, it’s another Ray Lamontagne song “You are the best thing†Please listen and know that I think of you when I hear that song.
Your Precious,
Here are some more quotes for you:
Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart. ~Author Unknown
You know when you have found your prince because you not only have a smile on your face but in your heart as well. ~Author Unknown
Come live in my heart and pay no rent. ~Samuel Lover
I but know that I love thee, whatever thou art. ~Thomas Moore
If you press me to say why I loved him, I can say no more than because he was he, and I was I. ~Michel de Montaigne
I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone. ~Javan
If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. ~Claudia Ghandi
Frommy OH
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW !! Why would I be mad with you. I was worried sick that you thought I had lied to you. NEVER EVER EVER Am I getting through to you. You adorable silly little Louisiana Lady.
I AM 54 (BTW he's 70) an old man compared to you.but I could make love to you like you would never believe and to quote you on Music with ALL repeats I yearn for your beauty,your body and you heart and soul. Now does that sound like a 15 year old. Am I too old for you Precious cos if I am tell me now so that I can leave you alone. I want to think of you as mine. To love and care for you and above all never hurt you or offend you.
Are you getting all this my "Honey Chile" I was afraid to tell you how old I was but you take it from there is still enough to satisfy you(!!!) and me. I do'nt want to sound crude but I want to do EVERYTHING with you if you get my drift !!
At this given moment I would give anything to be sensously taking of your clothes and caressin and kissing you all over.
After reading this do you get the idea that I might just be in love with the most beautiful woman I have ever seen !!!!!!
Yours
Alvar.
for ever and always, a praise I have used in every card, letter or communication that I have had with him since we met. He has never used it to me.
"Precious this is a Claddagh ring
the truest sign of love.
It shows as far as others go that you are right above.
You have never said you love me
but I think you really do'
Let this little Ring be a symbol of LOVE
between just me and you. "
I wrote this myself just for you.
It was my mums and is as dear to me as you.
Have you got rid of the grin yet ? You little devil. I still want to feel your touch.
Lots and lots of love.
Your Alvar.
ps Google Claddagh ring on Wikipedia and scroll down to where it says "with this Crown "etc
Now this bit is the worst. He sent her a photo of MY Claddagh ring, (an Irish wedding ring) with this poem, slightly altered, because he had sent it to me 23 years ago - told her he had written it for her and that the ring was his mother's.
Well I totally lost it, told him to leave and that I wanted nothing else to do with him. Of course, we went through the huge apology scene and that he didn't want to lose me, but now he's not communicating directly with this woman, only indirectly by leaving little messages on their Forum about how he is looking for forgiveness. It wouldn't worry me, but he seems to think that we can just go on as normal as if nothing has happened. Can anyone tell me what they think? I'm just so sad.
Sorry it's so long. Had to get it off my chest.