Life after divorce and adultery.
Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2005 5:31 am
I wrote this a LONG time ago when going through a BAD BAD divorce due to infidelity on my ex-husband's behalf. I've since calmed down, but I wanted to share this so that someone looking to find "another" might see what it causes and where it ends up. It is not pretty.
Leave me you would;
I knew one day you might.
Of course it was in the shadow of your mistress
in which this all took on sight.
I saw the vanity, the vulger, the sad.
I saw my own hate, and if that were not bad
I stoked it with jealousy, envy, and poor placed plight.
I fought for my rights, the rights of the kids.
You struggled in visitations at first to hold up your heavy lids.
You were living your life, had no one to answer to
I was raising two kids, finding work, trying to make do.
I worked two jobs, I still went to school.
What did you do during all this, besides sit, look, and drool
at another from which helped you break up a home....
another sent upon this earth to remorsefully roam...
to look for weakness and call it love....
So sad that you were convinced to believe
I've never known love better than from the ones we conceived
that you hastily forgot and made last on the list
while you played your new game and rolled in your bliss.
Was it worth it, to lose those you bred?
Was it worth it, to drag into another's bed?
Was it worth it to call me those names
to make others think I was the one to blame?
And what have I done? To be so vile?
I've raised these kids and gone the extra mile?
And what have you done, minus bounced checks
and broken vows?
What is so great, about this new love....this "now".
I've got my kids, the loves of my life
I neednt' look for another with more strife.
I needn't beg temptation to hide
Inside my home, inside my life
You made your mistakes
YOu made your new life
You now have a beautiful new wife
But what have you really?
A home that echoes no voices of those
that you made your life...as we all had supposed.
I've got their laughter, I've got their affection.
You've got that new life you gained from temptation.
Leave me you would;
I knew one day you might.
Of course it was in the shadow of your mistress
in which this all took on sight.
I saw the vanity, the vulger, the sad.
I saw my own hate, and if that were not bad
I stoked it with jealousy, envy, and poor placed plight.
I fought for my rights, the rights of the kids.
You struggled in visitations at first to hold up your heavy lids.
You were living your life, had no one to answer to
I was raising two kids, finding work, trying to make do.
I worked two jobs, I still went to school.
What did you do during all this, besides sit, look, and drool
at another from which helped you break up a home....
another sent upon this earth to remorsefully roam...
to look for weakness and call it love....
So sad that you were convinced to believe
I've never known love better than from the ones we conceived
that you hastily forgot and made last on the list
while you played your new game and rolled in your bliss.
Was it worth it, to lose those you bred?
Was it worth it, to drag into another's bed?
Was it worth it to call me those names
to make others think I was the one to blame?
And what have I done? To be so vile?
I've raised these kids and gone the extra mile?
And what have you done, minus bounced checks
and broken vows?
What is so great, about this new love....this "now".
I've got my kids, the loves of my life
I neednt' look for another with more strife.
I needn't beg temptation to hide
Inside my home, inside my life
You made your mistakes
YOu made your new life
You now have a beautiful new wife
But what have you really?
A home that echoes no voices of those
that you made your life...as we all had supposed.
I've got their laughter, I've got their affection.
You've got that new life you gained from temptation.
