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I was born after 24 weeks in the womb and weighed in 900 gr. I was the length of my Moms hand.

You wouldn't think to look at me now.

I was sick a lot until I was about 3 years old as my lungs were small but I'm still alive and kicking.

jennyswan;555178 wrote: I was born after 24 weeks in the womb and weighed in 900 gr. I was the length of my Moms hand.

You wouldn't think to look at me now.

I was sick a lot until I was about 3 years old as my lungs were small but I'm still alive and kicking.


Aw jenny that's a lovely story! i honestly think its amazing, it was obviously meant to be

Red;555188 wrote: Aw jenny that's a lovely story! i honestly think its amazing, it was obviously meant to be


forgot to add, you said till 3 you were sick a lot, was everything ok after that then?

Red;555189 wrote: forgot to add, you said till 3 you were sick a lot, was everything ok after that then?


Yeah well I used to get Bronchitis a lot but physically I'm in good health. I do suffer from an anxiety disorder called GAD and I get panic attacks but I think these things are a compilation of life. One psychiatrist did tell me that it probably stems from my anxiety at being left alone in the hospital so small as my mom could not come in every day back then. Things were different. But I guess I will never really know.

Thats realy interesting, i often wonder if prem babies feel the effects later in life, i know it can delay milestones etc when their younger

Did your mum keep any pics jenny? ive got a journal packed to brimming for LL full of every bit of info about her birth and first year, wish my mam had done something like this for me id have loved to look through it.

I watched this on the news, how truly amazing. All I could think was, Jade come today please! You are 10 weeks on from that, lol.

crazygal;555209 wrote: I watched this on the news, how truly amazing. All I could think was, Jade come today please! You are 10 weeks on from that, lol.


Noooooo you dont want her yet! she's all warm and cosy in there now stop it!

Do you think she'll make an early appearance?

Red;555204 wrote: Thats realy interesting, i often wonder if prem babies feel the effects later in life, i know it can delay milestones etc when their younger

Did your mum keep any pics jenny? ive got a journal packed to brimming for LL full of every bit of info about her birth and first year, wish my mam had done something like this for me id have loved to look through it.


Unfortunately we have nothing left, she had lost everything in a move years ago and I think the youngest picture that I have is from when I was 3.

You know I have some memories of when I was really small. My mom and my aunts etc said that I was really wise for my young years, they think it was from being in and out of hospital a lot. I would love to have had a little baby book or something but I guess my poor mom was stressed out enough worrying if I would survive rather than doing that. :-4

crazygal;555209 wrote: I watched this on the news, how truly amazing. All I could think was, Jade come today please! You are 10 weeks on from that, lol.


I love the name Jade. I would love to be called that if I could 'recall' myself.

Red;555217 wrote: Noooooo you dont want her yet! she's all warm and cosy in there now stop it!

Do you think she'll make an early appearance?


I seriously hope so. I know I have said it before but I never had this with my son, she really really hurts me. I couldn't sleep last night, she's bruised my insides the midwife reckons. She just doesn't keep still. I have an appointment Friday with a physio, not that they can do a lot. Bought a belt yesterday, REALLY regret it now as they will GIVE me one friday they said on the phone and the one I bought isn't even here yet, lol. More money than sense eh! Na, no money just impatience. Sick of sitting at home not being able to walk.

jennyswan;555218 wrote: Unfortunately we have nothing left, she had lost everything in a move years ago and I think the youngest picture that I have is from when I was 3.

You know I have some memories of when I was really small. My mom and my aunts etc said that I was really wise for my young years, they think it was from being in and out of hospital a lot. I would love to have had a little baby book or something but I guess my poor mom was stressed out enough worrying if I would survive rather than doing that. :-4


Of course she was, silly i didnt even think of that! i think all this baby journal stuff is relatively new as ive only got i baby pic of me...in the nuddy i might add! lol

got a few kiddy pics on outings/hols etc but not much really, is your mam over protective of you as a result of being prem do u think?

crazygal;555222 wrote: I seriously hope so. I know I have said it before but I never had this with my son, she really really hurts me. I couldn't sleep last night, she's bruised my insides the midwife reckons. She just doesn't keep still. I have an appointment Friday with a physio, not that they can do a lot. Bought a belt yesterday, REALLY regret it now as they will GIVE me one friday they said on the phone and the one I bought isn't even here yet, lol. More money than sense eh! Na, no money just impatience. Sick of sitting at home not being able to walk.


Oh i told you ud get one free from your physio missus! pffft :p

LL used to kick the crap out of me in the later stages, so badly sometimes id be sobbing which is why we assumed she was a boy the strength she had.

I know how you feel though i was like a granny, couldnt walk, could barely get up and felt like a huge blob of jelly...where was this amazingly gorgeous blooming beauty floating around like a nymph id imagined?

Red;555224 wrote: Of course she was, silly i didnt even think of that! i think all this baby journal stuff is relatively new as ive only got i baby pic of me...in the nuddy i might add! lol

got a few kiddy pics on outings/hols etc but not much really, is your mam over protective of you as a result of being prem do u think?


You're not being silly at all. That was a reasonable question.

My mom was very strict until I was 18 then I could pretty much do what I wanted. I don't have a great bond with my mother at all and she much prefers my younger sister. I don't mean to sound like I have a terrible relationship with her or anything which I don't but it's just not very special. This has also been said to me by a shrink I was at, that the bond was never created because I was whisked off straight away and kept in an incubator for weeks before she could hold and touch me.

jennyswan;555230 wrote: You're not being silly at all. That was a reasonable question.

My mom was very strict until I was 18 then I could pretty much do what I wanted. I don't have a great bond with my mother at all and she much prefers my younger sister. I don't mean to sound like I have a terrible relationship with her or anything which I don't but it's just not very special. This has also been said to me by a shrink I was at, that the bond was never created because I was whisked off straight away and kept in an incubator for weeks before she could hold and touch me.


That's so so sad Jen. Does she know how you feel?

Red;555228 wrote: Oh i told you ud get one free from your physio missus! pffft :p

LL used to kick the crap out of me in the later stages, so badly sometimes id be sobbing which is why we assumed she was a boy the strength she had.

I know how you feel though i was like a granny, couldnt walk, could barely get up and felt like a huge blob of jelly...where was this amazingly gorgeous blooming beauty floating around like a nymph id imagined?


I know ya did but I didn't expect to get an appointment so soon! Oh well, maybe I'll at least be able to use the one I bought on Friday, I have now three appointments, buses away from each other so gonna be a fair bit of painful walking too.

Not so bad this week with no school to get to and back from. I had a bad back with my son but he didn't beat me up! Wait until Jade gets outta there, I am gonna be the first to smack her and make her cry. :wah:

jennyswan;555230 wrote: You're not being silly at all. That was a reasonable question.

My mom was very strict until I was 18 then I could pretty much do what I wanted. I don't have a great bond with my mother at all and she much prefers my younger sister. I don't mean to sound like I have a terrible relationship with her or anything which I don't but it's just not very special. This has also been said to me by a shrink I was at, that the bond was never created because I was whisked off straight away and kept in an incubator for weeks before she could hold and touch me.


God isnt it weird how deeply it can affect your relationship, i hadnt thought of that at all. I spose you just assume it would make your bond stronger but obviously not. Did she go full term with your younger sis then?

crazygal;555237 wrote: I know ya did but I didn't expect to get an appointment so soon! Oh well, maybe I'll at least be able to use the one I bought on Friday, I have now three appointments, buses away from each other so gonna be a fair bit of painful walking too.

Not so bad this week with no school to get to and back from. I had a bad back with my son but he didn't beat me up! Wait until Jade gets outta there, I am gonna be the first to smack her and make her cry. :wah:


lol@that last remark...bad bad crazylady :wah:

crazygal;555232 wrote: That's so so sad Jen. Does she know how you feel?


Ah it's OK. I was very hurt for years and even thought I was just imaging it but my husband confirmed that she does treat me and my sister differently. I love her anyway. The funny thing is that if we weren't mother and daughter I don't think we would like each other much. She is very narrow minded and has told me with my anxiety disorder just to pull myself together (if only if was that easy) but I've tried to put the past behind me and just get on with things. She has also told me how selfish I am because sometimes I refuse to do things. It's more to do with anxiety then anything else.

Anyway I'm making her sound like a witch and she totally isn't. She is a good person and has worked hard all her life and taken a lot of crap. It's just we are completely not in tune if you get me. I feel like a total misfit in my family since the day I was born and have even been labeled an 'indigo child'.

Who knows? One thing I've learned is that life is what you make of it. Holding a grudge and anger only hurts myself. :-4

Red;555241 wrote: God isnt it weird how deeply it can affect your relationship, i hadnt thought of that at all. I spose you just assume it would make your bond stronger but obviously not. Did she go full term with your younger sis then?


Yeah she did and the too of them get on like a house on fire. My younger sis is also like the older one. She got married before me and is expecting her second child. She is a much stronger character and is tougher. I am married but have no kids and don't think I ever will so again I'm not popular as they love the grandkids. Sometimes you just can't please everyone.

jennyswan;555244 wrote: Ah it's OK. I was very hurt for years and even thought I was just imaging it but my husband confirmed that she does treat me and my sister differently. I love her anyway. The funny thing is that if we weren't mother and daughter I don't think we would like each other much. She is very narrow minded and has told me with my anxiety disorder just to pull myself together (if only if was that easy) but I've tried to put the past behind me and just get on with things. She has also told me how selfish I am because sometimes I refuse to do things. It's more to do with anxiety then anything else.

Anyway I'm making her sound like a witch and she totally isn't. She is a good person and has worked hard all her life and taken a lot of crap. It's just we are completely not in tune if you get me. I feel like a total misfit in my family since the day I was born and have even been labeled an 'indigo child'.

Who knows? One thing I've learned is that life is what you make of it. Holding a grudge and anger only hurts myself. :-4


Thats a good way to look at it jenny, it cant be easy knowing she treats you and your sis differently isnt just something you'd imagined.

Like the old saying goes, you can choose your friends but not your family, its hard when ur not close to your mum cos everyone just expects this to be the case when actually it rarely is, main thing is your at peace with the situation and not letting it get the better of you.

Red;555248 wrote: Thats a good way to look at it jenny, it cant be easy knowing she treats you and your sis differently isnt just something you'd imagined.

Like the old saying goes, you can choose your friends but not your family, its hard when ur not close to your mum cos everyone just expects this to be the case when actually it rarely is, main thing is your at peace with the situation and not letting it get the better of you.


Yeah I still love her and she is great, just we're different. I must admit to getting a bit jealous when I see girls and their moms together in town and stuff and would love to have that but you have to take what life hands you. I hope that if I ever have kids I will be different.

:)

I've only ever got on with my mum in short bursts, got send to boarding school when I were a kid, we just clashed. Even a couple of years ago when I was 30 we spend a week away together with my dad and son and we really fought. My sister is really close with my mum, I am now too but not when we spend too much time together. Don't feel bad, it's just the way it is sometimes. I was never made to feel less important though, my mum used to make sure she spent time out just with me without my younger brother and sister because she thought it was a jealously thing but as soon as we got home I turned into a bitch again. lol I was lucky though, my dad and I have always been really close and I'm still a daddies girl.

jennyswan;555252 wrote: Yeah I still love her and she is great, just we're different. I must admit to getting a bit jealous when I see girls and their moms together in town and stuff and would love to have that but you have to take what life hands you. I hope that if I ever have kids I will be different.

:)


yeh me to jenny, i always wish me and my mam were closer but at least we have them eh, i plan on being as close as is humanly poss with LL but you just never know how life is going to pan out, one thing for sure ill always do the best i can for her and never fall out over trivialities

Red;555255 wrote: yeh me to jenny, i always wish me and my mam were closer but at least we have them eh, i plan on being as close as is humanly poss with LL but you just never know how life is going to pan out, one thing for sure ill always do the best i can for her and never fall out over trivialities


Yeah that's the best attitude.

I suppose if I had more buddies I wouldn't miss it so much but I was away for five years then lost contact with my buddies so I guess I'm just kinda lonely. That's probably why I'm on the internet so much.

crazygal;555254 wrote: I've only ever got on with my mum in short bursts, got send to boarding school when I were a kid, we just clashed. Even a couple of years ago when I was 30 we spend a week away together with my dad and son and we really fought. My sister is really close with my mum, I am now too but not when we spend too much time together. Don't feel bad, it's just the way it is sometimes. I was never made to feel less important though, my mum used to make sure she spent time out just with me without my younger brother and sister because she thought it was a jealously thing but as soon as we got home I turned into a bitch again. lol I was lucky though, my dad and I have always been really close and I'm still a daddies girl.


Hey we're quite similar

I'm more of a Daddies girl too but he's a whole different kettle of fish. Another threads worth.

jennyswan;555261 wrote: Hey we're quite similar

I'm more of a Daddies girl too but he's a whole different kettle of fish. Another threads worth.


My dad's great, love him to bits. Poor thing doesn't realise yet he's gonna be my chauffeur from 9-6 Friday until my mum 'tells' him as she said it. Aww bless.

jennyswan;555244 wrote: Ah it's OK. I was very hurt for years and even thought I was just imaging it but my husband confirmed that she does treat me and my sister differently. I love her anyway. The funny thing is that if we weren't mother and daughter I don't think we would like each other much. She is very narrow minded and has told me with my anxiety disorder just to pull myself together (if only if was that easy) but I've tried to put the past behind me and just get on with things. She has also told me how selfish I am because sometimes I refuse to do things. It's more to do with anxiety then anything else.

Anyway I'm making her sound like a witch and she totally isn't. She is a good person and has worked hard all her life and taken a lot of crap. It's just we are completely not in tune if you get me. I feel like a total misfit in my family since the day I was born and have even been labeled an 'indigo child'.

Who knows? One thing I've learned is that life is what you make of it. Holding a grudge and anger only hurts myself. :-4


dear jen , just reading your post gave me a lump in my throat and goose bumps , my dad and mom only got together coz i was on the way there is a bit more too it but thats another story , both of them were very unhappy and took it out on me , i could as a kid never understand why my brothers and sisters all got to sit on my mums lap and all got hugs and kisses good night but not jimbo, my child hood was awful i was slave labour no more than that , i slept out side in a van with no blanketts like a dog , in the end jessie b's mum and my gran took me in a bundel of bones and probably saved my life , i went to see my mum many years later as she lie dying in a hospice , i dont know what i was hoping for some kind of peace , she told my brothers and sisters she loved them she looked at me and quite matter of factly just said jim you are and always have been a bitter dissapointment to me ,that kinda stung for a while i can tell you , no matter my gran ,grandad ,uncle fred and aunt jane loved me not to mention jess mark and sam god bless him:-4 :-4

jimbo;555268 wrote: dear jen , just reading your post gave me a lump in my throat and goose bumps , my dad and mom only got together coz i was on the way there is a bit more too it but thats another story , both of them were very unhappy and took it out on me , i could as a kid never understand why my brothers and sisters all got to sit on my mums lap and all got hugs and kisses good night but not jimbo, my child hood was awful i was slave labour no more than that , i slept out side in a van with no blanketts like a dog , in the end jessie b's mum and my gran took me in a bundel of bones and probably saved my life , i went to see my mum many years later as she lie dying in a hospice , i dont know what i was hoping for some kind of peace , she told my brothers and sisters she loved them she looked at me and quite matter of factly just said jim you are and always have been a bitter dissapointment to me ,that kinda stung for a while i can tell you , no matter my gran ,grandad ,uncle fred and aunt jane loved me not to mention jess mark and sam god bless him:-4 :-4


OMG are you serious about what your mum said to you? That's awful, so sorry. *hugs*

jimbo;555268 wrote: dear jen , just reading your post gave me a lump in my throat and goose bumps , my dad and mom only got together coz i was on the way there is a bit more too it but thats another story , both of them were very unhappy and took it out on me , i could as a kid never understand why my brothers and sisters all got to sit on my mums lap and all got hugs and kisses good night but not jimbo, my child hood was awful i was slave labour no more than that , i slept out side in a van with no blanketts like a dog , in the end jessie b's mum and my gran took me in a bundel of bones and probably saved my life , i went to see my mum many years later as she lie dying in a hospice , i dont know what i was hoping for some kind of peace , she told my brothers and sisters she loved them she looked at me and quite matter of factly just said jim you are and always have been a bitter dissapointment to me ,that kinda stung for a while i can tell you , no matter my gran ,grandad ,uncle fred and aunt jane loved me not to mention jess mark and sam god bless him:-4 :-4


aw jimbo, that's awful babe, you could of gone completely the wrong way after a childhood like that but you seem like a great bloke



xxxx

jimbo;555268 wrote: dear jen , just reading your post gave me a lump in my throat and goose bumps , my dad and mom only got together coz i was on the way there is a bit more too it but thats another story , both of them were very unhappy and took it out on me , i could as a kid never understand why my brothers and sisters all got to sit on my mums lap and all got hugs and kisses good night but not jimbo, my child hood was awful i was slave labour no more than that , i slept out side in a van with no blanketts like a dog , in the end jessie b's mum and my gran took me in a bundel of bones and probably saved my life , i went to see my mum many years later as she lie dying in a hospice , i dont know what i was hoping for some kind of peace , she told my brothers and sisters she loved them she looked at me and quite matter of factly just said jim you are and always have been a bitter dissapointment to me ,that kinda stung for a while i can tell you , no matter my gran ,grandad ,uncle fred and aunt jane loved me not to mention jess mark and sam god bless him:-4 :-4


Jimbo everybody has a story to tell don't they? Mine certainly wasn't as hard as yours but I've learned over the years that everybody's pain is there own.

You certainly seem like a great guy now so I'm glad that she didn't poison your soul. I have very unconventional beliefs about life and death and the journey our soul makes but I feel that you mother would have been so disappointed with herself when she reached the other side and reviewed her life. I also believe in a type of Karma and that she too will experience that kind of pain to learn.

Now you will think I'm weird but I really wish you well on your life's journey because I know you are already strong. :-4

jennyswan;555280 wrote: Jimbo everybody has a story to tell don't they? Mine certainly wasn't as hard as yours but I've learned over the years that everybody's pain is there own.

You certainly seem like a great guy now so I'm glad that she didn't poison your soul. I have very unconventional beliefs about life and death and the journey our soul makes but I feel that you mother would have been so disappointed with herself when she reached the other side and reviewed her life. I also believe in a type of Karma and that she too will experience that kind of pain to learn.

Now you will think I'm weird but I really wish you well on your life's journey because I know you are already strong. :-4






that is really strange , my doc said today i'm one of the strongest people he has ever met, truth is i feel like a wreck :wah: :wah:

jimbo;555285 wrote: that is really strange , my doc said today i'm one of the strongest people he has ever met, truth is i feel like a wreck :wah: :wah:


Oh Jimbo! At least your a nice wreck. :-4

jennyswan;555287 wrote: Oh Jimbo! At least your a nice wreck. :-4




thanks jen , i dont think i have spoken to you before but nice meeting you , word of warning say away from wise guy , his has webbed toes :-3 :-3

jimbo;555290 wrote: thanks jen , i dont think i have spoken to you before but nice meeting you , word of warning say away from wise guy , his has webbed toes :-3 :-3


Ok thanks for the warning.