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Tombstone · Post by **Tombstone** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 8:19 am

So sorry to hear LC! You're time as a Deputy was great, wasn't it? Life is made up of experiences. These are what you remember. Hang onto them and use them to step up to your next challenge.

And, yes, maybe your guardian angel decided you had enough and couldn't figure out any other way to get you off the force!

actionfigurestepho · Post by **actionfigurestepho** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 9:29 am

You'll still be the coolest cop I know, LC.

As hard as this is, it's putting you one stop closer to England and Bothwell though. So stop cancelling your appointments, fix yourself up, and get on that plane! :-4

abbey · Post by **abbey** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 11:51 am

Sorry i missed your post LC (internet probs)

I really can't add anything that all these lovely people have said before me.

My heart feels very heavy for you right now.

I send you my love and a hug big enough to crush you.

Of course you could always get work here

tee-hee.......

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 11:58 am

all the posts here, all the PMs. thankyou. i am still pretty rocky, but i am a survivor. i took all the bullets out of my gun magazines and am just going to cry it out. my chest hurts, i threw up my meds, but criminals have tried to kick my arse and failed, so i can't let this do it. and Bothwell is there for me. as you all have been. :yh_flower :yh_love :yh_flower :-1

Bez · Post by **Bez** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 12:01 pm

lady cop wrote: today a Col. and Lt. came to my house. they had to separate me from the sheriff office due to my health/heart attack. they were crying, i was crying. they were hugging me, and saying 'we want you back when you are well, you are an outstanding officer'. they need to fill my position on my squad. i understand that. i have been out for months. so why am i sitting here sobbing my heart out? :-1 what am i now? i am still state-certified LE, but not a county deputy now. that was my whole identity. my heart is broken and crushed right now. :-1 i feel so sad.

Nothing we say can make you feel better today or even tomorrow...on top of everything else this is a crushing blow.....Your heart WILL mend LC. I don't know when, but it will....can you get over to the UK ? You need to get away from all the c**p in your life...I feel so helpless. when you've got yourself together focus on the positives....stay strong...lean on US at FG. xxxxx :-4

OpenMind · Post by **OpenMind** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 1:39 pm

Nothing more I can add. You are so well loved and respected.

:-4 :-4 :yh_hugs

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 3:20 pm

*pinches pussycats rear*

*hauls ass* whoooooooooosh...................

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 3:25 pm

Nomad wrote: *pinches pussycats rear*

*hauls ass* whoooooooooosh...................you're damn lucky i took all the bullets out of their magazines. (thanks hon) Bez and OM and Abbey my friend also. thanks.

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 6:45 pm

lady cop wrote: you're damn lucky i took all the bullets out of their magazines.

I got extras, iffn' you'd like 'em...:sneaky:

CARLA · Post by **CARLA** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 7:43 pm

:-3 No guns or bullet talk please scares me to pieces.. LC just needs some time to work this through.... She can deal with this I know she can..:rolleyes:

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 8:59 pm

Florrie wrote: You have my heartfelt sympathy.

The same thing has just happened to me at 4 PM today.

It is a sick...sick...bottomless feeling added to a sick...sick...bottomless feeling.i am sorry! want to get drunk and talk about it? .....Carla, i promise you this will not finish me. but right this minute it feels like it will. i have many many emails, phone calls, even the Lt who had to do the deed. a cruiser keeps driving by here. i keep saying "god opens a window". :-1

Gabs · Post by **Gabs** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 2:59 am

I am so sorry LC... I just cruised over and saw this thread....

You are right in repeating: "GOD OPENS A WINDOW" remember that...

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 3:15 am

Police rushed to the home of a former female Deputy Sherrif early this morning. Called by neighbors who heard a single gun shot... she was found sitting in a chair,in front of her computer,dead. A single gunshot to the heart ended her life. Investigators are calling it a suicide. The female described by fellow officers as "Tough as nails, commited to her career, and a brave humanatarian..had a glowing reputation on the force. As a result of her death, six fellow officers were unable to report for their shifts, because they were so emmotionally distraught. A young female, rookie new on the force, turned in her weapon, unable to continue on the job. The scene upset her so. At 3 pm that day, headquarters received a call about a hispanic ( could be any race... this sounds good) male ranting and raving on a front lawn. Short 6 officers, the captain was unable to send a car. The perpatrator? Killed six elderly men, and wounded 11 others, screaming "I dont want to get sick, and I dont want to get old!! 12 MONTHS LATER..................

The sons of the deputy sheriff who commited suicide last year were interviewed this week. When asked how they were handling the loss of their mom, they replied " Weve each been married 4 times this past year... cant maintain a relationship.. our unexpected loss has upset us so. It has been reported that the young female rookie who left the force, after the incident turned to prostitution

in order to "make ends meet, and is doing quite well. Bothwell, fiancee of the brave officer, turned SUICIDEEE packed a back pack filled with canned plum puddings and plastic spoons, headed for Scotland, and was never seen again.

He does contribute articles by mail to a London publication. Last month , his topic was " When love is cut short... the living remain distraught".

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 3:30 am

PAGE 2

Doctors at a local Florida hospital were interviewed early today. Investigators in the suicide of the deputy sheriff known as LC??????? are trying to close out the case.. One reporter asked, "Why did she do it doc? was there no chance of a happy life? There was a chance.... this woman had LOVE in her life. She just had to proceed with medical treatment, take her medicine, and change her life style.

As a final note.... A letter arrived from the local college 6 weeks after the deputy sheriff chose to leave EVERYONE. The letter said.

Ms ????????? LC?????

Now that youve had time to rest and recover, we have an invitation for you.

We know that you are leaving for England this spring. But for the winter, could you teach a series of lectures for us?

Session One is.. The Police Force.. Is it the right career choice for you?

Session Two.... Law Enforcement... what does it take to be a success?

Session Three.....My Experiences Working as a Deputy Sherriff

Session Four...... Life After Public Service, Where do I go from here?

Please teach these classes for us, then you will be free to go. There are so many young people who law enforcement as a career, who really shouldnt. In the event that they make the wrong choice... it could mean the loss of their lives, or the loss of civillian lives. Think about it, and let us know.

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 4:07 am

Weeder, normally I enjoy rollercoasters, but I truly didn't know where you were going with that one until the ride was almost over. I hope it had the desired effect.

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 4:24 am

The story .. told in a humorous, and ironic way, is supposed to reveal how the loss of someone valuable, effects many lives. Whenever someone alludes to suicide, it is important to address. In one way or another. Sometimes regular conversation just doesnt hit the mark. It was an investment in the welfare of someone I dont even know. Because LC has often presented a sophisticated sense of humor herself........ Shell get it. I hope.

Accountable · Post by **Accountable** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 4:33 am

She'll get it.

pink princess · Post by **pink princess** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 5:43 am

weeder that was an ABSOLUTELY fantastic post

i dont think it will only be LC who is affected by it, i think that will have an impact on many people....

truly brilliant

minks · Post by **minks** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 10:09 am

Hey LC,

How are you doing?

Gosh girl, like can sure kick the crap outta ya huh.

Well LC, be proud of your accomplishments, and have faith, you will have many more ahead of you.

I watched a man get a tattoo on his leg, a portrait of his son who was killed at 17 in a car crash. The man had this to say

"Be Bitter or Be Better" I thought a powerful statement, and I think we should all take that simple stand in life.

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 3:15 pm

BabyRider wrote: I got extras, iffn' you'd like 'em...:sneaky:

You couldnt fight your way out of a wet paper bag ! :p

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 3:24 pm

Nomad wrote: You couldnt fight your way out of a wet paper bag ! :p
Back to analyzing me, Nomad?

I don't need to fight, I carry bullets, and Bullet.

Jives · Post by **Jives** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 3:34 pm

Dear LC:

You have both my sympathy and my empathy. In other words, I both feel for you and understand how you feel. You are having a crisis of self-confidence. What is left when the thing you wanted most to be in this world, your contribution to humanity, the thing that gives you your sense of self-worth is suddenly taken away?

You are left wondering, "What will happen to me?" "How can I go on?" and even, "Am I worth anything anymore?"

Trust me, you are still worth very, very much. You are still talented, and a wonderful human being. Nothing has changed that. Life will go on, so worrying that it won't is unneccessary. And what will happen to you is simple...change.

I've had to face this problem three times in my life now.

The first time was when I had spent 5 years of my life becoming a fighter pilot, and then 6 years of my life doing that....only to realize one day that, not only didn't the job turn our to be what I expected, I wasn't happy doing it anymore. I was faced with a decision, stay and be unhappy for the rest of my life, or leave and throw 11 years of my life and effort down the drain. I left, and I felt the same despair you are feeling for a while.

Until...of course....life came along and offered me a new path.

My second time was when I had spent 8 years playing with a rock band, only to leave the band and watch them skyrocket to fame and fortune six months later. Again, I just shrugged my shoulders and began a new career. Cooking.

Finally, after striving and straining for 3 more years, I made it to the top of my corporation. Only to have the rug pulled out from underneath me by my Father's untimely death.

Again, I started over.

In the end, everything worked out fine. I met the girl of my dreams, found the career of a lifetime, and raised a family.

So, you see, there's really no need to feel bad. (Although you and I both know that changes like this are very scary and disconcerting.) Things will always work out for the best.

Change is both difficult and neccessary, frightening and mandatory. - Jives

Or as your guy might tell you, "Keep a stiff upper lip my good woman! Eh, what?!"

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 5:21 pm

again my deepest gratitude to all who have spent their time, thought and effort to provide support and wisdom. Weeder that was a stunning scenario to read. i don't REALLY want to die, but the last couple of days i wouldn't have cared. i just spent all afternoon at the hospital, i have not been able to hold anything down, including meds, for two days and my chest hurts. i'm suffering. i won't deny it. but reading all these posts i realize i have to get a grip. i had emails from the LT again today and someone in admin checking on me too. they still care. ....Jives i know...i have been very down in life and thought to never recover... then discovered wells of fighting spirit where i thought nothing was left. money is going to be an issue fast, i keep visualizing myself going from a cop to bag lady,living in a dumpster. so all this weighs on my mind. Bothwell holds me up, lifts me up. and each person here does too. :yh_flower :yh_flower :yh_flower

Jives · Post by **Jives** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 5:49 pm

lady cop wrote: i keep visualizing myself going from a cop to bag lady,living in a dumpster. so all this weighs on my mind.

What?!!!! You have got to be kidding me. With all of your talents and abilities? You'll be creatively engaged until the day you depart. With your mind and spirit, you'll always have something to do and be doing something. I have no doubt of it.

mominiowa · Post by **mominiowa** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 5:55 pm

Ohhh my:-4 - LC- I just read your post...I know I am a couple days late but I wanted you to know that I am so sorry...You are such a strong person - you are made of steel honey and things will turn around soon for you...Just imagine - you and Both being so happy when things settle down...we truly think a lot of you lady - and you are surrounded by special people....Hang in there.......If I could wave my magic wand girl - I WOULD!!:-4

Jives · Post by **Jives** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 7:14 pm

Hey! That reminds me....wouldn't you have had to quit your job soon anyway? When you move to England? This just makes the move easier!:o

CARLA · Post by **CARLA** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 7:36 pm

WEEDER, You had my hands shaking, and my heart pounding.. I can't tell you how real your post seemed to me. I would be devastated if anything happened to LC just devastated, I had tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat reading it.. I can barely key..:-1 :-1

LC, Sweetie I'm here for you alway, you don't have to shoulder this alone remember that... and remember it's never as bad as it seems.. I hope you can get the meds to stay down, your health is the ONLY IMPORTANT THING NOW, NOTHING ELSE MATTERS.. :-4 :-4

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 7:56 pm

i choked the meds down. again. they have stayed down three hours. Carla i would never want to cause you worry, i am sorry honey. i just have to be honest here about what this is like. can't put a pretty face on it. i was in a store yesterday, needed to pay for gas. ten illegal aliens with whom i am familiar came in and went all different directions. i KNEW what they were up to. and i suddenly realized i have no more authority. what an awful feeling that was. ...i have had a bunch of phone calls, one dep. called me tonight and said there was a briefing where the Major said 'we just had to let go of one of ours, but if she gets well we would welcome her back'. they all knew who he was talking about. then they took a dep. out to booking, he had to blow a blood alcohol, and sent him home. dumbass. i am so glad my reputation is good. slowly getting better, slowly.

CARLA · Post by **CARLA** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 8:09 pm

:-1 I know, I know.. I just worry you know me. You have my support totally, and I understand how your feeling, just couldn't bear anything happening to you..:-4 :-4

Clint · Post by **Clint** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 8:17 pm

lady cop wrote: i choked the meds down. again. they have stayed down three hours. Carla i would never want to cause you worry, i am sorry honey. i just have to be honest here about what this is like. can't put a pretty face on it. i was in a store yesterday, needed to pay for gas. ten illegal aliens with whom i am familiar came in and went all different directions. i KNEW what they were up to. and i suddenly realized i have no more authority. what an awful feeling that was. ...i have had a bunch of phone calls, one dep. called me tonight and said there was a briefing where the Major said 'we just had to let go of one of ours, but if she gets well we would welcome her back'. they all knew who he was talking about. then they took a dep. out to booking, he had to blow a blood alcohol, and sent him home. dumbass. i am so glad my reputation is good. slowly getting better, slowly.
The healing you are doing will take time. One day you will wake up feeling a little better, then a few weeks later you will realize you've been feeling better for a while, then you will remember how bad you used to feel and be grateful that life is better. It will happen on a time table specially designed for you.

nvalleyvee · Post by **nvalleyvee** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 8:57 pm

lady cop wrote: i choked the meds down. again. they have stayed down three hours. Carla i would never want to cause you worry, i am sorry honey. i just have to be honest here about what this is like. can't put a pretty face on it. i was in a store yesterday, needed to pay for gas. ten illegal aliens with whom i am familiar came in and went all different directions. i KNEW what they were up to. and i suddenly realized i have no more authority. what an awful feeling that was. ...i have had a bunch of phone calls, one dep. called me tonight and said there was a briefing where the Major said 'we just had to let go of one of ours, but if she gets well we would welcome her back'. they all knew who he was talking about. then they took a dep. out to booking, he had to blow a blood alcohol, and sent him home. dumbass. i am so glad my reputation is good. slowly getting better, slowly.

Geez LC - I did not know you had such a hard time with meds......BTS does not - basically - but we will see tomorrow. I have to take meds every day for the next 5 years - chemo therapy drugs - by mouth after my bad chemo in my veins. We all need to take meds to get ourselves well after a very bad physical bout........

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 9:07 pm

nvalleyvee wrote: Geez LC - I did not know you had such a hard time with meds......BTS does not - basically - but we will see tomorrow. I have to take meds every day for the next 5 years - chemo therapy drugs - by mouth after my bad chemo in my veins. We all need to take meds to get ourselves well after a very bad physical bout........
This is going to sound totally crappy and wrong, and I have no idea how else to put it except to ask: Do you participate in ANY thread where you don't turn it into something about you?

I keep seeing this from you, and it's starting to make me wonder. No matter what is going on in other people's lives, you have it, or have had it worse. You sound like a defeatist, and you sound like you thrive on your own drama.

If it was just a "bad physical bout" for LC, she'd be fine. She'd get over it. But it's that, plus losing her career which is more than a job to her, it's her identity. Her man is 4,000 miles away, she's practically broke and has no one near her to support her. We are all very aware of what is going on in your life, NV, but why not just offer support here, instead of constantly reminding us how bad YOU have it?

theia · Post by **theia** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 12:05 am

Ladycop, I'm sure that someone above must have already said we're proud of you. I want to repeat it, loudly, WE ARE PROUD OF YOU. You are going through just about every unpleasant life event at the moment including the whole range of painful emotions. And you are getting through it. You might not be able at present to think "Hell, I'm an amazing woman to cope with all this" We can see it though. Because you are. And you are already beginning to see through the murky and painful present.

And you have our support, our love and our admiration, truly :-4

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:08 am

Sorry Carla.. but the talk of guns in the mouth, eating bullets and such.. seemed very real to me. So I was trying to paint a scenario that she could see.

venus · Post by **venus** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 2:02 am

LC you are you. and not having to don a uniform is never going to change that. I have a feeling you will always fight for the under dog, just now possibly in a less scary way.

I believe that a chapter is ending because the next chapter is going to be even better.. life with bothwell in England.

Sometimes we get our wishes and prayers answered, they just don't get answered in the way we expected!

Its crummy and my heart goes out to you, but its your time now to make those decisions and have 'ME' time. Honestly how often have you had me time in the last ,how ever many years youve been mum cop etc. Now its time to be you and gain all the love and wishes you havent had time for.

:yh_hugs for you, now get your butt over here and make Bothwell an honest guy!

weeder · Post by **weeder** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 2:05 am

BabyRider wrote: This is going to sound totally crappy and wrong, and I have no idea how else to put it except to ask: Do you participate in ANY thread where you don't turn it into something about you?

I keep seeing this from you, and it's starting to make me wonder. No matter what is going on in other people's lives, you have it, or have had it worse. You sound like a defeatist, and you sound like you thrive on your own drama.

If it was just a "bad physical bout" for LC, she'd be fine. She'd get over it. But it's that, plus losing her career which is more than a job to her, it's her identity. Her man is 4,000 miles away, she's practically broke and has no one near her to support her. We are all very aware of what is going on in your life, NV, but why not just offer support here, instead of constantly reminding us how bad YOU have it?Often when someone is attempting to comfort, or offer hope to another human suffering.. they will pull from their own experiences. and share them. Its like throwing a life raft. Or like saying "Ive been there too, hold on."

Having experienced the fear of a life threatening diagnosis myself, recently.. I know that you enter a realm of realizations that alters your perceptions, and you communicate in ways you didnt before. When your really scared,

you can hear the kind words people are offering you. Your grateful for the compassion, and the warmth offered. But it doesnt take away your own stress.

Sometimes, when trying really hard to say the right thing..you can say something

that is not appreciated. Weve all experienced that.

ArizonaStufMuffin · Post by **ArizonaStufMuffin** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 11:52 am

Dear Lady Cop.

I have been reading here at FG for months now and have loved your posts and

respect you very much. I am joining today to post about this situation of

yours and I just have to ask WTF?

You are pouring your heart out on this thread and you post 'you need your man'

you are the lowest you have ever felt - even mentioning suicide - where is your

man??

Why isn't he flying to you at this moment, why isn't he flying you to him? Why

are you worried about money? - he has commited to look after you and support

you, be your husband.

Why is he posting Bible study threads instead of supporting you publically on

this thread?

I have been reading about your relationship through your posts here and I know

you love him very much. Aren't you supposed to be together by Christmas? that

is only 2 months away.

I feel terrible for you and I hope this guy is not just stringing you along.

I also think you need a lawyer in regards to you being fired. I don't

understand how they can fire someone who is on disability. I am not familiar

with Florida Law but it seems to me as long as your heath concerns are

legitimate you should be given a desk job that you can handle when you are

ready to return. I don't understand why they would take your uniform, don't

you purchase that yourself? How can they force you to return it to them? and

you mention only the clothes but not that they asked for your badge. I have

never heard of anyone being fired at their home before, I am really suprised

they did not make you come into the office for an official meeting.

This whole situation is strange. I can't help but feel there is way more going

on with you.

scotty · Post by **scotty** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 12:13 pm

Scottyboy reaches out to give LC a big scottish cuddle, like I said LC we are with you.

Take it easy pal.

scott

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 12:55 pm

ArizonaStufMuffin wrote: Dear Lady Cop.

I have been reading here at FG for months now and have loved your posts and

respect you very much. I am joining today to post about this situation of

yours and I just have to ask WTF?

You are pouring your heart out on this thread and you post 'you need your man'

you are the lowest you have ever felt - even mentioning suicide - where is your

man??

Why isn't he flying to you at this moment, why isn't he flying you to him? Why

are you worried about money? - he has commited to look after you and support

you, be your husband.

Why is he posting Bible study threads instead of supporting you publically on

this thread?

I have been reading about your relationship through your posts here and I know

you love him very much. Aren't you supposed to be together by Christmas? that

is only 2 months away.

I feel terrible for you and I hope this guy is not just stringing you along.

I also think you need a lawyer in regards to you being fired. I don't

understand how they can fire someone who is on disability. I am not familiar

with Florida Law but it seems to me as long as your heath concerns are

legitimate you should be given a desk job that you can handle when you are

ready to return. I don't understand why they would take your uniform, don't

you purchase that yourself? How can they force you to return it to them? and

you mention only the clothes but not that they asked for your badge. I have

never heard of anyone being fired at their home before, I am really suprised

they did not make you come into the office for an official meeting.

This whole situation is strange. I can't help but feel there is way more going

on with you.i did not pay for my uniforms, they were issued. they came to my house as a courtesy, a kindness really. they did not want to do this but had to fill my slot, fiscal year ends oct.1. as for my man, he supports me 100% PRIVATELY, he dislikes putting his personal feelings out in public. it helps me to do so, he does not wish to do so. i was very polite in answering you at all "stuf", i don't know you nor you me. but i have never posted anything except the truth here. you have no right to question me. note: i am still LE certified. i am simply too ill right now to be of use. i also was not on disability, it was workers comp. i was not fired, i was separated. they do want me back if i get well......and Scotty, thanks hon.

scotty · Post by **scotty** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:02 pm

lady cop wrote: i did not pay for my uniforms, they were issued. they came to my house as a courtesy, they did not want to do this but had to fill my slot, fiscal year ends oct.1. as for my man, he supports me 100% PRIVATELY, he dislikes putting his personal feelings out in public. it helps me to do so, he does not wish to do so. i was very polite in answering you at all "stuf, i don't know you nor you me. but i have never posted anything except the truth here. you have no right to question me. note: i am still LE certified. i am simply too ill right now to be of use. i also was not on disability, it was workers comp. i was not fired, i was separated. they do want me back if i get well......and Scrat, thanks hon.

Well said LC

Scott

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:06 pm

Scott i said Scrat where i meant to say Scotty...i just fixed it, sorry. ...just to add a bit, i am trying to sleep this off. i am in and out of here. it helps to read and post, then go sleep some more. but i'm paying attention best i can.

scotty · Post by **scotty** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:16 pm

Its ok pal.

Scott

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:18 pm

Hey, Bravo, Stuf. I think you're the very first member to ever p!ss off the cop with your very first post. Why would you go and do that? You can read all you like, but you don't KNOW LC or Bothwell at all, and to question their relationship and his support is flat-out rude. You have no idea of the financial, personal and logistical difficulties both are experiencing. Since you at least got the "they love each other" part right, wouldn't it stand to reason that if being together was possible, they would be?

As for the rest, you yourself said you don't know Florida law. How do you question the reality of LC's circumstances? Asking a cop like her to take a desk job would be like taking a triple crown winner and asking it to pull a hay wagon. And she'd probably do it anyway, if it was an option. Obviously it's not.

weeder wrote:

Often when someone is attempting to comfort, or offer hope to another human suffering.. they will pull from their own experiences. and share them. Its like throwing a life raft. Or like saying "Ive been there too, hold on."

Having experienced the fear of a life threatening diagnosis myself, recently.. I know that you enter a realm of realizations that alters your perceptions, and you communicate in ways you didnt before. When your really scared,

you can hear the kind words people are offering you. Your grateful for the compassion, and the warmth offered. But it doesnt take away your own stress.

Sometimes, when trying really hard to say the right thing..you can say something

that is not appreciated. Weve all experienced that.

Yep, I agree. You can do that once in a while. But every other time? I can sympathize, I can understand, I can share my own personal grief. But not with every post I make on every thread. There is a line between sharing misery and spreading misery. There's a point when it looks like a pity-trip as opposed to support. You yourself share personal trials, but you are also supportive and uplifting and inspirational at the same time. The continuous "feel sorry for me too" that I am seeing elsewhere is blatantly self-centered.

Jives · Post by **Jives** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:21 pm

ArizonaStufMuffin wrote:

I also think you need a lawyer in regards to you being fired. I don't

understand how they can fire someone who is on disability.

Holy CRAP!

I've seen lurkers post before, but this has to be the all-time most explosive I've ever seen.

Welcome, ASM. You've got guts, I'll give you that. While we are sitting here waiting for the fallout and the blast wave, I'll agree that it seems wrong to separate a sick person. Have you looked into this LC?

lady cop · Post by **lady cop** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:22 pm

i must be getting better...i had to go to store and i chewed out some dumbarse cabbie for parking in the fire lane...old habits die hard. and i feel my warped sense of humour (i have to spell it UK) coming back. i am certain this will be a process of recovering. up down up down. then i'm going to feel mortified i was so weepy.

when i get all my duckies in a row and go to England i shall be a new person here.

BabyRider · Post by **BabyRider** » Fri Sep 30, 2005 1:23 pm

Jives wrote:

I do, however agree that it seems wrong to fire a sick person. Have you looked into this LC?

lady cop wrote:

i was not fired, i was separated. they do want me back if i get well.

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