Life after divorce and adultery.

Dixiespurgirl
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Life after divorce and adultery.

Post by Dixiespurgirl »

I wrote this a LONG time ago when going through a BAD BAD divorce due to infidelity on my ex-husband's behalf. I've since calmed down, but I wanted to share this so that someone looking to find "another" might see what it causes and where it ends up. It is not pretty.





Leave me you would;

I knew one day you might.

Of course it was in the shadow of your mistress

in which this all took on sight.

I saw the vanity, the vulger, the sad.

I saw my own hate, and if that were not bad

I stoked it with jealousy, envy, and poor placed plight.



I fought for my rights, the rights of the kids.

You struggled in visitations at first to hold up your heavy lids.

You were living your life, had no one to answer to

I was raising two kids, finding work, trying to make do.

I worked two jobs, I still went to school.

What did you do during all this, besides sit, look, and drool

at another from which helped you break up a home....

another sent upon this earth to remorsefully roam...

to look for weakness and call it love....



So sad that you were convinced to believe

I've never known love better than from the ones we conceived

that you hastily forgot and made last on the list

while you played your new game and rolled in your bliss.

Was it worth it, to lose those you bred?

Was it worth it, to drag into another's bed?

Was it worth it to call me those names

to make others think I was the one to blame?

And what have I done? To be so vile?

I've raised these kids and gone the extra mile?

And what have you done, minus bounced checks

and broken vows?

What is so great, about this new love....this "now".

I've got my kids, the loves of my life

I neednt' look for another with more strife.

I needn't beg temptation to hide

Inside my home, inside my life

You made your mistakes

YOu made your new life

You now have a beautiful new wife

But what have you really?

A home that echoes no voices of those

that you made your life...as we all had supposed.

I've got their laughter, I've got their affection.

You've got that new life you gained from temptation.
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Post by lady cop »

:yh_angel :yh_hugs :yh_hugs hugs to you Dixie, his loss for sure. sorry you went through that. xoxoxox
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Post by BabyRider »

lady cop wrote: :yh_angel :yh_hugs :yh_hugs hugs to you Dixie, his loss for sure. sorry you went through that. xoxoxox
Ain't that the truth...you got the better end of that deal, Dixie.
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Sheryl
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Post by Sheryl »

All I can say is wow!

Those words are so pure in emotion. I'm so glad your getting better.

I hope one day, my anger will finally die down and I can once again live without triggers and replays in my head.

Thank you for posting this.
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Dixiespurgirl
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Post by Dixiespurgirl »

I have come a long way since writing this over 3 years ago. Though my ex hasn't seen the kids since he terminated his rights and was a co-petitioner to let my husband adopt them, we do send him school work and allow the kids to write him. They have not asked to see him as of yet, but I'm sure it is in the cards. I know they have questions for him and it is important for them to know him...in some essence.

As for the woman in all this, I have made a great deal of triumph on relating to her and trying to "meet" her in a different light. We do occasionally email in case a package has been sent or something like that. We have pretty much made some sort of peace with each other and have chosen to go forward without tagging along all the bad.

Things are bad when they happen like that, but I am so glad I was fortunate enough to find a man to adopt and love my children like they were his own blood!

I don't agree when they say that I was blessed on this broken road and so were they...after all there is a big difference in following a broken road to another and breaking a road so you can have something you're not supposed to have ;)
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Post by koan »

I think it's wonderful that you found the words to express all that you felt. You are right when you say "what do you have?" and that you are the one with what matters, the laughter and the love of your children. Glad to hear you found love again.
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Post by kensloft »

Dixiespurgirl wrote: I wrote this a LONG time ago when going through a BAD BAD divorce due to infidelity on my ex-husband's behalf. I've since calmed down, but I wanted to share this so that someone looking to find "another" might see what it causes and where it ends up. It is not pretty.





Leave me you would;

I knew one day you might.

Of course it was in the shadow of your mistress

in which this all took on sight.

I saw the vanity, the vulger, the sad.

I saw my own hate, and if that were not bad

I stoked it with jealousy, envy, and poor placed plight.



I fought for my rights, the rights of the kids.

You struggled in visitations at first to hold up your heavy lids.

You were living your life, had no one to answer to

I was raising two kids, finding work, trying to make do.

I worked two jobs, I still went to school.

What did you do during all this, besides sit, look, and drool

at another from which helped you break up a home....

another sent upon this earth to remorsefully roam...

to look for weakness and call it love....



So sad that you were convinced to believe

I've never known love better than from the ones we conceived

that you hastily forgot and made last on the list

while you played your new game and rolled in your bliss.

Was it worth it, to lose those you bred?

Was it worth it, to drag into another's bed?

Was it worth it to call me those names

to make others think I was the one to blame?

And what have I done? To be so vile?

I've raised these kids and gone the extra mile?

And what have you done, minus bounced checks

and broken vows?

What is so great, about this new love....this "now".

I've got my kids, the loves of my life

I neednt' look for another with more strife.

I needn't beg temptation to hide

Inside my home, inside my life

You made your mistakes

YOu made your new life

You now have a beautiful new wife

But what have you really?

A home that echoes no voices of those

that you made your life...as we all had supposed.

I've got their laughter, I've got their affection.

You've got that new life you gained from temptation.


Wow!
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minks
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Post by minks »

kensloft wrote: Wow!


Oh Dixie a rare moment in time, that nearly made me cry.

Such a mirror to my life indeed.

Oh girl I admire and aplaud you for your strength and hope your healing well.

I too have gone down that path well am still going there but recovery is sweet.

I can't help but pity my children's father as he has lost the 2 brightest and most beautiful daughters.
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